Daddy Vs. Mommy Scenario's

Why is it that my husband and I can do the same exact activities, but consistently have very different outcomes.  Such as bath time.  Without fail bath time goes very well when my husband has the children.  They'll spend hours in there without fail.  I used to love bath time with my kids (the first two times).  It gave me a good 30-45 minutes of pure joy.  No children crying, no one needed food, no one was pulling at my leg while the other was in my arms.   It was a little escape, without actually escaping.  The Honeymoon ended quickly though.  Now my bath time with the kids looks a little more like this.....
Splish, splash, happiness!
Titus poops.
HURRY- pull out Titus, wrap him in a towel, pull out Ryker and do the same.
Drain the bath
Fill up the bath
Put Ryker back in.  Put Titus back in.
HURRY- scrub the kids before anything else can go awry
Titus poops.
HURRY- pull out Titus, wrap him up.
BANG- Ryker falls in tub.
I RUSH, about to have a heart attack.
Grab my sopping wet toddler and try to console him.
He pees on me. I wipe him down.
Wrap Ryker in a towel.
Titus is screaming, so I attend to him.
Now Ryker is screaming, so I attempt to attend to both.
Titus pees on himself before getting the diaper on.
Sponge bath it is!
Diapers on- CHECK! Lotion on- CHECK! Clothes on-CHECK!
Whew..........
Me getting the chance to take a shower......no check

What I love about these scenario's is that about the time I finally get things in order, have Ryker happy with a bottle and kick up my feet to feed Titus, Ty walks in,  making it look like I've been lounging around all afternoon.  I think there is a conspiracy happening between my two children already.

Thumbs up for this Cosmetic line

Alright Ladies I am letting go of some insecurities for this blog post in hopes that it might help some of you, or someone you know.   I've always struggled with acne and it seems like I've spent most my life (and funds) trying to find solutions for it.   When I was in high school I took acutane after many attempts with topical creams, medication, different cosmetic lines, etc.  Thankfully the acutane cleared up my skin and I was able to feel some sort of freedom for a while.   Unfortunately, that only lasted a few years and pretty soon the acne was back.   It came back around the same time that I got married and because of the serious side effects of acutane if you become pregnant I just wasn't willing to take that risk.   So the hunt was on again for something that would work.   Lots of money was spent on face wash, spot treatments as well as laser treatments (hoping to get rid of the scarring too).  This last spring my aunt told me about a new line called Blackbox Cosmetics.   Since they were just getting off the ground they only had a face wash and lotions out at the time.   I tried those and while they did leave my skin feeling great and didn't seem to make the acne worse....it didn't get rid of my acne or my scarring.   Just a few months after using the product, Blackbox sent out an email looking for people who were willing to participate in a trial for their new acne line.   I sent them a photo of my skin and they sent me the product (face wash and treatment serum).  I was excited about the idea of trying something without loosing more money.   Right before they sent me the trial kit my skin actually began getting worse and worse.   A week after using the product I found out I was pregnant, so obviously my hormones were going crazy and that was making my issue even worse.   The trial kit lasted me 8 weeks and I've attached my before and after photo's.
I'm not a salesperson and I'm really not trying to sell anyone on this.   I understand everyone's skin is different, but coming from someone who has literally tried everything, I hope that if any of you are struggling with the same issue this might be the answer for you like it was for me.   Blackbox has just released this acne line called "Geniskin" and you can read more about it and/or purchase it from the link below.   There's some real positive things about this company:
1. You can purchase the "pretty" packaged product your first time, but each time after that you can just purchase the "refill" at a discounted price.   This way you aren't paying for the pretty packaging every time.  The refill just slips right into your old case.
2.  You honestly only have to use 1 pump of the wash and the serum to get the job done, so they last 6-8 weeks.
3. The masque and the scrub tend to last 10-12 weeks for me because I only use them 1-2 times per week.
4.  When I priced it out I am spending about the same as when I was buying the cheap stuff at Walgreens.

I really hope this info helps someone out!
Blackbox Cosmetics Geniskin Line

BEFORE

AFTER

My Perfect Boy is 1 Today!

His sweet smile. His infectious giggle. His go-with-the-flow demeanor. His perfect little hands and his perfect little toes. The way he says "baaaaa" no matter what animal he is looking at. The smile he gets when I enter the room and the way he reaches for me, wraps his arms around me and burry's his head in my shoulder. The happy go lucky attitude he has EVERY single morning. The no fear approach he takes as he crawls over our Great Dane and then makes his way to our German Shepherd's ball.   Everything about my little boy is perfect and the fact that I can call him MY little boy just takes my breath away.

What a blessing God handed us one year ago today. As we waited with anticipation by the phone last December 20th, we had no idea what joy this little boy would bring us. We didn't even know he was a boy yet! We got the phone call just after midnight that our baby boy had entered this world happy and healthy.   Our hearts welled up with excitement and the love that had already began to grow just tripled in size!

I think about Ryker's birth mom quite often this time of year.  What a blessing she is to us. She let God orchestrate such a beautiful family and was willing to let him work through her to bring Ryker to us. She gave him life. She chose his happiness over her own and she, along with her mother, chose to see the beautiful big picture that God was painting. They said over and over that, "We know God planned this baby for your family." And oh did he ever!  I see Tyler's personality shining through in Ryker. I can tell he will be goofy and fun loving. He's also as easy going as his daddy in almost every way. He loves music like I do.  In fact the only time he throws a fit is if the music is not loud enough in the car as we drive down the road. He wants to ROCK and so do I, so our times in the car are always fun.

This year has flown by so fast and I wish sometimes I could just slow it all down. I try to enjoy every moment with my sweet little man, but somehow I still feel like I have let time slip through my fingers. I love him with all of my heart.  Ryker is the greatest gift God could have ever blessed Tyler and I with. Someday, I pray, he will truly understand the love I have for him.  But as my mother always said, and I now truly understand, he most likely won't until the day he holds his little one in his hands for the first time.  This love I feel is beyond description, beyond understanding, and without a doubt God given!

Happy Birthday my sweet son!  I love you more each day and cherish you every moment.

Mommy

Where is Home

The last month has just been a whirlwind of crazy, unexpected blessings!  We are moved out of our old house and trying to get settled in our new place.  Although we have not slept there yet, not even once, we've had two events (NNU's Twirp and our Harvest Party).  We already have three weddings booked and two other special events booked out there.  My mind is just blown away at how faithful God has been to walk us through this fun journey.

Something I've noticed through all of this is how my definition of "Home" has been solitified.   From our old home on Choctaw to my parents house to Ty's parents house to our new house, I find myself calling them all home.  When and why?  When that's where I'll be with my husband and son.   I've said several times, "See you at home." or "We're on our way home."   Each time "Home" is a completely different location.   I love this.   I love that my heart instinctively thinks of home as a place where I am with my family.   I love my boys more than any girl could and am extremely thankful that God for some reason entrusted me as a wife and mother to them.  

New Home=New Business Venture

Well, things have certainly been exciting around our house lately.  About a year ago we started praying about a piece of land that we had only dreamed could one day become our home, our business and our mission.  In January 2008 we were engaged at 18120 Dean Lane in Nampa and if all goes accordingly on October 18th, 2011 we will be calling it our home.   We will also be calling it Still Water Hollow.   Throughout this whole process of writing a business plan, putting our house on the market, etc.  the verse Psalm 23:2 "He makes me to lie down in green pastures; He leads me beside the still waters" has been our anthem.   It has reminded us to trust in His will and His timing.  We know that none of this could be possible if it weren't for God's incredible plan and we must give Him and only Him all the glory. 

Just a little information on the property, for those of you who are curious.  It's 5 acres of beauty!  There's a 700 sq. foot pond located right in the center with a gorgeous water fall.  The chapel, located at the back of the property was built in 1899 and originally located on McMillan.   The previous owners, the McKellips, moved this little white chapel onto the property and restored it.  The chapel holds approximately 160 people and has a vintage organ inside that just completes the feel.   There's also an adorable mining town with old shacks and a mint still that transports you to a simpler time.  In the front of the property there's a shop that we plan on turning into the perfect place to hold indoor events.  We went coffee shop hopping the other day and gleaned ideas that would help give it that rustic, yet cozy feel. 

Some insight into our plans for Still Water Hollow:
We obviously will love having weddings, family reunions, class reunions, birthday parties and other special events out there.  Our hope is that this will become a place families can come and make memories.   We all know this is a difficult time for families to find fun activities to enjoy together while staying on a budget.   I wish we could go to the movies every weekend, or Roaring Springs, but it costs an arm and a leg these days.   It's our goal to create fun events at Still Water Hollow that are affordable and sometimes even free for the community to come and enjoy themselves even while their on a budget.  Music is obviously a passion of mine, so it's my dream to create an atmosphere where great music can be enjoyed while being in such a gorgeous atmosphere.  We plan on having concerts and jam nights out there.  Remember Sunday's when you'd go to church, then come back home and enjoy a big dinner with great fellowship alongside family and friends?  Well, someday we'd like that tradition to turn into you all coming out to Still Water Hollow to enjoy food, fellowship and great teaching.   Just taking it back to basics where we learn, encourage and uplift one another.  Stripping aside the worries and politics we tend to get wrapped up in and reminding our selves what it's all about.

So, I hope this little post helps give everyone some insight into our plans and dreams for our soon to be home and business.  The biggest favor I could ever ask is for you all to spread the word.  It would mean so much to us if you'd tell all your friends and family members, especially those who may be looking for a place to hold their next event.   We now have a Facebook page and we are working on gathering all the marketing tools needed.   The website should be up soon.   We are still 2 weeks away from moving in, but we'd like to hit the ground running, starting with getting the word out! I hope we'll see some of you at the Harvest Party, or at one of our other events.  

Much Love!

I Call Him My Son

I prayed for him each night before I knew there was a him to pray for.   I prayed he'd grow healthy and strong inside the womb.   I cried when they said, "It's a Boy!"  I fell in love before I saw his face and then I took a free fall when I held him in my arms for the first time.   I've wiped away his tears, rocked him as he's cried, sang to him as he falls asleep and kissed him goodnight.   I've been up with him all night and chased him all day long.   When he smiled for the first time I was the one standing over him, when he rolled over for the first time I was the one with the camera and when he crawled for the first time I was the one cheering as though it was a football championship.   My heart breaks each time he's sad, sick or uncomfortable, my soul smiles every moment that I look at him, think about him or hold him.  I've called him my son since the day he was born.   And after 281 days they now call me his mom. What an honor, what a blessing and what a day!

Today we had Ryker's finalization at the Canyon County Courthouse.  We were surrounded by our parents, brother, sister, and brother-in-law.   There hasn't been a time during the last 9 months that I haven't thought of Ryker as my son, but now I can officially say that I am his legal parent and he has the birth certificate to prove it :)  It was such a special moment in the court room seeing as our judge is a long time family friend and made it extra special for us.   At one point she said she didn't feel she should even ask any question or else she might start crying.   We each had a moment to share what Ryker means to us and how it has been as a family the past 9 months. Tyler went first and explained our excitement we felt as we waited by the phone to hear of his delivery and then the love that grew and grew from the moment we laid eyes on him.   My favorite words I heard my husband say were, "I would do anything for him."   I know that's true and he is such an incredible father.   I have a feeling the words he spoke will mean so much to Ryker someday.   Well, then it was my turn and as usual I was a blubbering mess. About all I could get out was how much we love him and how special he is to us.   I can hardly even think about him without my eyes welling up and my heart bursting with love!  What a blessed mother I am.   I could have never dreamed of the love that would fill my soul once you become a parent.

We are off to celebrate with family and friends this evening and I hope one day Ryker can look back and the photo's and memories shared of this day and realize how deeply he is loved by so many!

Wanting What You Can't Have

There are silly little things that are making me go absolutely crazy right now.   I've never been great about being told "NO", ask my parents.   They said, "no" and I usually found a round about way to turn it into a yes.   So, needless to say there are some no-no's of pregnancy out there that are driving me banana's...things that never used to even phase me and others that I've realized have become an addiction!

The billboard with the soda cup filled to the brim and frosty drops of water sliding down the outside....

The sound of a soda can being opened and that infamous "ahhhh"....

A turkey sandwich piled high with yummy veggie's, but COLD COLD turkey sliced perfectly and stacked just so....

The glass of wine I carried down the stairs that smelled so sweet and had a hint of raspberry, only to hand off to one lucky lady who enjoyed the crisp cool flavor in the hot evening sun...

The trampoline....yep, I just wanna go jump on one...

The smell of bleach.   I just want to go clean something top to bottom and maybe even sit in a room that smells like bleach (oh man I think I'm getting this one from Ty)....

I'm sure as soon as this is all over none of these things will be appealing to me, but if you asked me today I would tell you the day after this baby comes into this world I will spend the afternoon scrubbing everything in sight with the strongest cleaner I can find, then I will go get my workout by jumping on an unexpected strangers trampoline, and finally I will reward myself by sitting in a hot tub with a Big gulp, Starbucks coffee, and glass of Ste. Chapelle wine...alternating sips after taking large bites of my cold turkey sandwich ;-)